Friday, July 9, 2010

i will not judge...



In the spirit of the law of pure potentiality I am trying to practice non-judgement. Trying desperately not to judge. Not to judge myself, and my surroundings. Not to judge others.

"I will not judge". This has become my mantra. As judegmental thoughts creep into my space I repeat "I will not judge...I will not judge". You know what I'm learning...I judge... more than I'd like to admit.

And it's not just that I've become harder on myself, which I have. It's that I've started to judge others; I mean I even judge the man...not the man, but my man. And totally without cause. I've misplaced that innate trust and pureness that partners with youth and have become a wee bit cynical.

Wait, is that the word I want to use? Yup, cynical - "contemptuously distrustful of human nature and motives". Ugh. What a definition. If I could have chosen the words at 16 to describe my 28 year old self, contemptuous and distrustful would not be on the list. Lovely, accepting, kind...those would be words on the list.

There was a time when I was full of compassion and caring and patience and void of judgement.

Time. Life, has shifted that balance. I find myself judging more with less patience.

So, let's go back to the wee bit part. I would not consider myself a judgmental person, just a person who has a slight (clearing of the throat) tendency to judge. And, this is a new thing, a thing that I can change. I am upset with myself (i will not judge...), for getting to a point where I feel comfortable passing judgement so freely. I didn't even know that I was judging and casting out this negativity until I started to bring awareness to my thoughts ~honestly.

And so, now that I am aware, it's time to reel in this little woman with the gavel and send her on her way...permanently.

2 comments:

  1. or, you could take it to the extreme and judge so ruthlessly that it becomes ridiculous and makes you laugh. Thanks for sharing, you made me think and smile, not bad.....

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  2. haha. yes, some times I do that too.

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